i was working with my hands
following all the directions
collecting larva and small innocence
i take back all the heart felt nothings i felt for you
i take back all the semen stains undevoted
with a guilty shrug
i pensively hide my dirty laundry with yours
i don't purport to know your constellation back
riddled with freckles and hidden hopes
i am affection
i am sick boy with scratches on my wrist
a shinning star is a sun that will be gone
by the time you get to it
so i wish on this barren bottle
how i wish it would be filled infinitely.
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you put me to sleep
with an abandon
that longs to breach my several worries away
i long to foreclose
on this salvageable love
i will take pills
to balance my brain
to feel no pain at all
with a prisoner soul
i have captured all the care
of any possible heart at all
i don't sing in the shower anymore
you don't hold hands with me anymore
i give you all the credit
for erasing me
lets make sure neither of us miss me,
and burn all my remainders.
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i just don't miss
all the failures
i use to collect in yr fallen eyes
but i don't know what a melody sounds like
unless you've sang it to me
and a song was just a sound
until you threaded it through yr vocal chords
and i am washing dishes
and counting sheep
killing lives of past "mes" and "yous"
i'll get some stranger
to share this wish with me
about a rainbow with razor blades at its end
about a cloud of doubt resting on my chest
with all this sun shine
i'd rather these shutters stay shut.
