i'm still here waiting anticipating
that this always you prayed about was real
well now i know about false pride in arbitrary promises you made
so much for this deal made with crossed fingers behind your back
i can't believe i believed in you
i can't believe you were the one that showed me how much i could hate me
i should have never cared for anyone like you
you're the reasons i have been looking to the soil
and now you're nothing but the reason
to take care of myself without consequence
as for me now
and how i will see it from this moment forth
that i am the one that decides what i feel and how i hurt
and you will never know any part of me.
i hope you shudder when you see parts of me in anyone you care for.
