i once calculated infinity
it was a matter of closing my eyes
saying what matters most to me
and then wishing the rest away
and the simplist moment of my life
was then opening my eyes
and swallowing hard on the rest
so one more thought
about the ease and meter
of care without care
or love without feelings
and then i will let it all fade away
for my life without barely ways
is borne of now
and so forth
let me be anything that which radiates that which i love
come to me all that i have pushed away
and i will take this to bed with me
i am better off for being me
than trying to realize self in others
all i have wasted too much energy on being them
and listening to them
so in my mind and outloud, next time when i see you;
"i bet you think you had it all figured out
i hope to god you can see yourself in the mirror now
and why it makes me want to erase you
it's plain to see that you were sicker than you made me out to be
i hope you cut me out of you when you walk that long road
you don't deserve to even know my name or face
especially since you have spent your whole life lying behind my back.
i don't care what you say under your breath to me or them
just jump off that fucking cliff already
and do what i have imagined you doing for so many years."
