i am forgetting
to take my time
to breathe between the moments
i work for unfamilair feelings
ones i haven't had
all these days run together
like a train with an engineer at both ends
need is such a silly word
like you need to shut your fucking mouth,
well i have more to say:
i keep forgetting
how much you need
to take the time between the bridges
to fold yr layers of misanthropy
untill you've hidden yr loss
becuase there isn't a face here
that hasn't died like you have.
i keep forgetting
about when you were eight
and you cut me half of yr twizler
and you gave me the bigger half;
god, is that what grace is like?
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"heart shapped ice tray"
it takes the form
of where you love it
like a girl that likes punk rock
or a boy that likes powder blue overalls
i know about shoe string
and dry humping
but will you come to my window
before the morning
i memorized the placement of
yr hands on my heart
so i'll never feel alright
so i'll never respond
to anyone but you.
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9.22.05
"pink shoe laces"
take a hold of my other half
we'll walk the halls
and take the day in stride
the tiles that measure our time
52 tiles between my class and yours
and it comes time for the bell to ring
so we pass our notes
at lunch, shared lunches
i'll take yr pb&j
and you can have my jello
at the end of the day
sounds yr mother's horn
i'd slowly walk you to the station wagon
hoping it was your brother
who'd let me give you a kiss
who'd let me hug you a little longer.
