7.18.05 6:14am
when i call,
you do not hide
with yr hands,
you wave to me
and i count
the days apart
like The Count
or dominoes
i hope for you
like i hope for full moons or over-cast afternoons.
7.18.05 6:18am
and now i see you
with my blue and red bruise, in my shear nightgown
stars with failed embraces
teeth with tongues and lips
assholes and vaginas
i had feelings when i met you
but it got lost with my virginity
the common cold has more heart
than you cumming all over my face
i'll settle for sickness
7.18.05 6:23am i am with child.
i looked away
yr hand was on my thigh and looking away
i was holding my hand and hoping you would do the same
it was sad, it was wonder
it was pure, it was god.
i looked away
yr arm was around my shoulder looking away
i was holding my breath and hoping you could kiss me
it was love, it was hope
it was safe, it was god.
i looked away
yr head on my lap and looking away
i was holding my belly, only 3 more months to go
it was beauty, it was pretty
i was with child, it was god.
7.18.05 6:27am the poker tournament
really i do, i have to,
to keep up with the hair-dos and and hair-don'ts
and hip huggers and half and half milkshakes,
halter and tube tops.
playing cards with my dad and his friends
i was 14, devoloped enough to know i was just enough
my dad stumbled off drunk into the next room
my dads five friends took turns
and i got keep all the poker money.
